Fighting the Hopelessness

I come from strong stock. My parents were born in the 1920s to immigrant, semi-literate parents.  My parents were in their late 30s and early 40s when they had us.

They lived through the depression, the wars and made the galactic leap beyond the Lower East Side and Pelham Parkway (in the Bronx) to settle down in midtown Manhattan. We had all of the advantages and none of the handicaps of my parents’ and grandparents’ generations. My grandfather would shake his head — anything is possible in America.

We were raised to expect to work hard and succeed. Success was the inevitable end of hard work. You could miss Mother’s Day or a family celebration — even great uncle Lou’s retirement party — if you were working. (But you couldn’t miss a funeral or a shiva because even if you didn’t like the person alive, G-d forbid you wouldn’t pay your respects after the end. But I digress.)

Success was measured by your ability to give more to your children and community than your parents did. A Nobel Prize was not required but not off the table either, so to speak.

I can’t live up to my heritage. Why?  I am a formerly successful lawyer, whose practice continues to crater in the aftermath of the greatest economic meltdown since the Great Depression.

But failure is not an option. No matter what, we are responsible for our lives and fear of homelessness is good.

Fear is a motivator but hopelessness is the enemy. I try to imagine that I am the protagonist in a Robert Ludlum novel about an anemic looking, gray-haired, 40-something desk jockey — ok, work with me — who fights against the great evil of NO HOPE.  So call me Joan Bourne (Jason would be too butch).

I want my family to live in comfort and I want this world to be a better place for my having been born into it. But fighting the hopelessness is overwhelming.

Where are we? Where do we go from here?

This Yom Kippur, our rabbi spoke about the first two questions G-d asks in Genesis: of Adam, G-d asks “where are you?” and, of Cain, G-d asks “where is your brother?”

Why, the rabbi posed, does G-d ask these questions since G-d is omniscient and knows the answers? Because, the rabbi posits, of the importance of Adam and Cain to be accountable for who they are (as in “Dude, look around you.  What are you thinking?”) and what they have done (as in, “Dude, did you think that was a GOOD idea?”).

Once we answer these questions, then next question is:  where do we go from here?

I believe that President Obama has tried to engage us in this conversation.  Especially on the topic of torture.  We, individually and as a society, need to acknowledge that we tortured people and that is wrong and that we failed at the very moment our national character demanded that we stick to our ideals.  It is ok to be imperfect, it is ok to fail at things.  But it is not ok to stay there, mired, unwilling to recognize the imperfection and the failings and set a new course.

Well, this year, I am moved to start trying to answer these questions in my life.  It will probably take me a lifetime to get it right.

We don’t learn from history

We don’t learn from history.  We don’t even recognize when it is repeating.  And history DOES repeat.  Fights over resources, power, pride and riches with leaders sacrificing innocents and non-innocents alike in their quests. Sound familiar?  Day in, day out.  Year in, year out.  Generations on end.  Millennia.

But for me today is an especially sad day in this scary, violent world. 

Israel has been accused of war crimes and crimes against humanity.  Israel’s rise to nationhood came out of the Shoah, the most infamous atrocity in modern history.  (The Shoah is more infamous but no more tragic than the slaughter of Armenians, Bosnians and Croats, Rwandans, Sudanese in Darfur, to name a few.) 

In my lifetime, the grandchildren of oppressed stand accused of being oppressors.  Three generations sandwiched by two atrocities, one documented and the other alleged.  That is also a lesson from history — that the oppressed can easily become oppressors when given the opportunity.

Some of my relatives (all of whom have died) were survivors of the Shoah and the atrocities of Eastern Europe in the early 1900s.   For them, Israel was a realization of dreams and hopes.  

But evil knows no boundaries and respects no borders.  And there have been generations within which to forget the lessons of history.

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By JOHN HEILPRIN, Associated Press Writer John Heilprin, Associated Press Writer Tue Sep 15, 12:18 pm ET

UNITED NATIONS – A U.N. investigation concluded Tuesday that both sides in the Israeli-Palestinian conflict in Gaza committed war crimes and possible crimes against humanity, raising the prospect that officials may seek prosecution in the International Criminal Court.

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Redemption Song

IMG00044IMG00045Last night I entered the 42nd Street subway station and I heard someone doing a pitch-perfect rendition of Bob Marley’s Redemption Song.  People were singing along.

I was in a “woe-is-I” mood.  [“Won’t you help to sign these songs of freedom?”]

I was feeling like this economic and political quagmire would just continue and there would be no new start for our country.   [“how long will they kill our prophets as we stand aside and look? Some say it’s just a part of it, we have to fulfill the book”.] 

How am I going to get out of this funk and enjoy life again and be grateful for all that I have [“Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery; None but ourselves can free our minds.”]

So, I started singing along, “Redemption song; Redemption song,” with strangers and it was stirring.  I am still humming it today.

Inspiration comes in the strangest of places.  In the bowels of NYC in the overcrowded, smelly Times Square Station.  Redemption song.  Redemption song.

No, really, she said “Great White Hope”?

Nooooooo.  She didn’t really.  Yesssss?  Nooooooo.

A representative from Kansas, Lynn Jenkins (R) used the phrase “Great White Hope” when referring to existing and future leadership talent within the Republican party.  And Obama got skewered for saying the Cambridge police acted stupidly?

She says she wasn’t thinking about a white contender against Obama in 2012 [I accept that she wasn’t thinking; but I wondered when she exercises her gray matter].  Also, various Republicans said no offense was meant.  How nice for them to say.  Charming, really.

Rep. Jenkins, one of 535 who review and pass laws affecting our land, did not know the back story on the unfortunate turn of phrase.  Except you don’t have to know any back story to know that it can’t be a good phrase.  [That is, if one uses one’s gray matter.]

Let’s sound it out together:  Great [not bad so far] White [anyone have a plausible reason for this word other than racial reference?] Hope [as in champion].  Let’s parse it: White Hope.  Hmmmm. A champion for whites as opposed to .  .  . other races?

To review, history books are not necessary to the implications of the statement.  But I bet no one intended any offense.  Rep. Jenkins and others like her [Herr Glenn “Gestapo” Beck, par exemple] truly are afraid of losing their status as the majority and governing race in America.  And they are voicing it.  And then, they fear they may face discrimination [retribution?] for their elitism and excusivity and want all of the programs against which they fought so hard when they had the power.

They see an end to THEIR society of whites-only country clubs, privilege and access to power (and not all whites are allowed, so if you have bad dental work, live in a trailer park and wear a sheet on occasion, you don’t belong either). 

I am counting on the citizens of this great country (including “whites” like me) looking forward to having leaders and people in positions of power reflect the rich multi-cultural society that is the United States of America.   Maybe because I come from the huddled masses who achieved the American Dream.  Or maybe because skin color is an irrelevant marker for anything of value. 

So these people are really hoping for a great WHITE hope.  And, in case you are wondering, yes they’ve inbred so much that someone who can stay idiotic things can still become a Congresswoman.

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From the Associated Press —

OTTAWA, Kan. – A Kansas congresswoman says a recent comment about fellow Republicans seeking a “great white hope” was not a reference to someone who could challenge President Barack Obama‘s political agenda.

Rep. Lynn Jenkins said Thursday that she was making a comment about GOP leaders in the U.S. House. She says she was trying to reassure Republicans that there are bright leaders there.

But Jenkins says she apologizes if anyone was offended by her remarks at the Aug. 19. forum.

She says she was unaware of any negative connotation to the phrase.

The phrase stems from the early 1900s when there was a campaign to find a white boxer who could defeat heavyweight boxing champion Jack Johnson, who was black.

A spokesman says White House officials will give Jenkins the benefit of the doubt.

THIS IS A BREAKING NEWS UPDATE. Check back soon for further information. AP’s earlier story is below.

TOPEKA, Kan. (AP) — A freshman Republican congresswoman apologized Thursday for telling a gathering in her district that the GOPwas still searching for a “great white hope” to stop President Barack Obama’s political agenda.

Rep. Lynn Jenkins used the phrase during an Aug. 19 forum as she discussed the Republican Party‘s future and tried to reassure members that the GOP has promising young leaders. Someone in the crowd recorded video of the event in Hiawatha, about 65 miles northeast of Topeka, and gave it to the Kansas Democratic Party.

“She apologizes if her words have offended anyone,” Jenkins spokeswoman Mary Geiger told The Associated Press. “That was not the intent in any way, shape or form.”

At an event at University of Kansas in Lawrence, Jenkins denied she was speaking in racial terms and said she meant only that the GOP needs “a bright light.”

“I was unaware of any negative connotation, and if I offended anybody, obviously, I apologize,” Jenkins told the Lawrence Journal-World.

At the Hiawatha event, Jenkins was discussing the GOP’s future, with Democrats in control of Congress and Obama elected the nation’s first black president, in response to an audience question. Jenkins is white, as are three House colleagues she mentioned as future party leaders: Eric Cantor of Virginia; Kevin McCarthyof California and Paul Ryan of Wisconsin.

“Republicans are struggling right now to find the great white hope,” Jenkins said last week. “I suggest to any of you who are concerned about that, who are Republican, there are some great young Republican minds in Washington.”

The Democratic National Committee in Washington declined to comment Thursday.

“I saw that report,” White House spokesmanBill Burton said at a briefing on Martha’s Vineyard in Massachusetts, where Obama is vacationing. “I also saw that her spokesperson backpeddaled and said that was a poor choice of words. We obviously give congressman Jenkins the benefit of the doubt.”

The National Republican Campaign Committee in Washington didn’t immediately respond to a request for a comment.

Jenkins was not available for comment Thursday morning, but she was to hold an afternoon town hall meeting in Ottawa, about 55 miles southwest of the Kansas City metropolitan area.

The phrase “great white hope” often is associated with pre-civil rights-era racism and is widely believed to have entered usage in the U.S. when boxer Jack Johnson, who was black, captured the heavyweight title in the early 20th century. Many whites reacted to Johnson’s achievement by trying to find white fighters — or a “great white hope” — who could beat him. The boxer’s story inspired a play, then a movie, with that title, both starring James Earl Jones.

Geiger said she doubts Jenkins was aware of the phrase’s connection to the play about Johnson. Geiger said she’s never heard Jenkins use it before.

She said Jenkins simply was discussing how the GOP has faced challenges in recent years but has talented young leaders, adding, “That’s what she was saying, that was it, nothing more, nothing less.”

Tyler Longpine, a spokesman for the Kansas Democratic Party, called Jenkins’ comment “a poor choice of words” but said he doesn’t think it was anything more than that.

He said a Democratic Party supporter shot the video at Jenkins’ forum in Hiawatha and shared it with the state party.

“The thing that kind of strikes me was the partisan tone of it all,” Longpine said. “If she’d stick to talking about policy rather than politics, she could have kept her foot out of her mouth.”

Jenkins, 46, won the 2nd Congressional District seat for eastern Kansas last year by ousting Democratic incumbent Nancy Boyda. She previously served two terms as state treasurer and four years in the Kansas Legislature.

The accidental audience on someone else’s first date

I should keep my ears closed.  I should have brought a book. But they were so loud.  I sat; I listened; I blogged.

Last night was weekday date night for my partner and me. I was early because I closed a deal and, flush with the knowledge of getting paid for a deal, I left the office early and waited at a quasi-trendy place for my beloved to join me.

So, I sat at the bar and this is what happened in real time (think of me as a stenographer):

 Two people next to me are having a first date. The guy is trying to establish his bona fides as a New Yorker — born in Manhattan, first few years in Brooklyn (when it was uncool to live there) and then to NJ.  As a Manhattan native, I believe that he still needs a visa to come to the island, let’s be honest.

They are now talking about their siblings’ good marriages and failed marriages.  She responds to something he said (which eagle ears here can’t quite understand above the din) with, “ohmigod, I can’t believe, like, you know, that happened to my family”.  Then Sweet Valley High came up in the conversation, as a benchmark for human behavior. Ok, so art is life’s instruction. I am scared.

Apparently, it is cool to be not into any scene — a guy who is a homebody who owns his apartment gets the girl.  Also, the West Side shows you’re deeper and more family-oriented than the East Side, if you believe this guy. Also Murray Hill neighb apparently has settle-down creds, so you can get the girl that night at least.

The guy let slip that he spent more than he wanted (i.e., he had even more money in the bank) on his two bedroom apartment. She is impressed because she can’t afford her an apartment since she doesn’t believe in one bedrooms.  How nice for her. A new religion in the making.

He told her she reminded him of someone famous. I couldn’t hear who because of the untimely request by a fellow patron for a bill.  Darn. She was not upset because they are still talking and she is trying to make him laugh.

He skis. She doesn’t ski well. Skiing is an “issue for me” she says. He is an athlete but skiing is not his bag. He finishes every sentences on a high note, as if asking a question. 

He is driving me to drink. She is driving me to the psychopharmacologist.

I seemed to have misplaced . . . .

I looked in the mirror in the mirror just now and I feel as if I misplaced a decade somewhere.  Maybe it is in the same place where my mind has been waiting patiently to be found.  My assistant has been helping try to find my mind for eight or so years now.

I don’t pine for a lost youth.  My adult years have been great.  People who say college are the best years are NUTS.  Life gets better, more textured, more nuanced and fuller with age.

I do pine for my supple skin (vanity purposes only) and limber muscles (to keep up with my son) of my early thirties.  I am trying to be reasonble even with that — I’m not asking for early twenties.  I’ll take late thirties even, as long as there are a few extra memory cells thrown in.

Thought for today July 26, 2009: Why newspapers must survive

The 24 hour news REcycle needs information to feed the machine it created.  If there is no news, then the machine requires that the hosts “dig deeper” to create news or to raise ancillary issues to the level of important news.  Michael Jackson and Jon and Kate are not as important as (although they are very important to those who love them) news items as are the recent North Korean alleged shipment of arms to Myanmar, the election issues in Iran, the health care bill, the economy and about ten other issues that have fallen into the news black hole.

True, the newspapers are not necessarily heroic purveyors of important information  — they were complacent about the Iraq war.

But the pressures of a 24-hour newsday does not encourage in-depth journalism.  Just because a headline ran over cable the night before doesn’t mean that the news is stale the next day.  Headlines do not contain all of the information one needs to know.  News is not like an iPod or a Nintendo game — good until the next version comes out.  A news story evolves as people and movements weigh in and complicate the issues.

I prefer newspapers.  I prefer articles that have taken a week in creation.  They are more informative, more textured and better considered than the regurgitation of the same pat phrases heard on television journalism. But they are not gospel.  So, one needs to read many sources, including some representing the opposite side of one’s general political leanings.

If independent newspapers become obsolete, the free flow of information will be drastically curtailed in our society and that is a threat to our freedoms and liberty.  And if it happens, I will get my news from Jon Stewart.

My sister, my hero

My sister is a highly respected medical doctor. More than that, she is a healer. No, she doesn’t perform magic; she can’t make stricken people walk.

She is a healer because she cares. She talks to families and doesn’t leave the hospital until everyone is stable or under control. She can’t prevent bad things from happening if those bad things are beyond the skills of doctors and death ultimately beats each of us.  But she calms anxiety, she speaks softly and tenderly and she instills confidence — for the patient and the family. That’s why I say she is a healer. Regardless of the outcome.

I have been out with her at dinner or the gym, when she has run back to the hospital because the family of a patient arrived and she really wanted to talk with them or when, sadly, a patient she was following took a bad turn.

In this whole health care debate, I think all we need are more doctors like my sister who choose to be attendings at hospitals and not boutique salons for the rich and famous.

My sister is my hero.  Not because she is my big sister.  Because she is a caring doctor who heals strangers.

Gun Control

My sister — who is a frequent contributor of ideas for my blog — sent me this announcement from New Yorkers Against Gun Violence.  This was one of our mom’s favorite causes. 

Let’s do something about the gun violence in our city and our country.

 
PLEASE HELP: THE U.S. SENATE IS ABOUT TO WEAKEN NEW YORK STATE GUN LAWS

An amendment allowing concealed carry gun  permit holders in any state to carry in every state is up for a vote as early as Monday afternoon.  After some horse trading late last week, the Democrats were able to add the hate crime bill as an amendment to the Defense Authorization Bill and in return Republicans were permitted to add the national concealed carry amendment.
Calls are needed to U.S. Senators all over the country.  Please take two simple steps.

Please help stop this madness.  Imagine walking along the Hudson River next to someone with a  LOADED gun tucked in their shirt or rubbing elbows with tourists packing heat in Times Square or on the subway.  This could be a reality.  New York State currently has the best gun laws in the country and New York City is the safest large city in the country.  In New York City it is very hard to get a permit to carry a concealed weapon on the streets.  In other states it is easy and many people have them.   More than 500,000 people in Florida alone have such permits. Do we want them visiting New York WITH their guns?

1)    Reach out today to at least five people you know from out of state and ask them to call their Senators’ offices on Monday morning.  The message is simple. Please call the U.S. Capitol Switchboard Monday at (202) 224-3121 and ask to speak to your Senators. Tell them to vote NO on Senator Thune’s Amendment No. 1618 to the Defense Authorization Bill (S.1390).

2)     Go to Senator Schumer and Senator Gillibrand’s Websites and send them a comment asking them to work with their colleagues to defeat this amendment.  Particularly ask Schumer to work with those Senators he helped get elected.  Don’t allow New York’s safety to be sacrificed to other political agendas.

Senator Gillibrand – http://gillibrand.senate.gov/contact/

Senator Schumer – http://schumer.senate.gov/new_website/contact.cfm