I know that each day is a gift, but some days, you wish you had the receipt so you could exchange it for a better day. Today was one of those days. Humbling, tender, sad, crazed, scary, and ultimately safe at home with my beloved family. It was not about too much work, which is a blessing in this economy, but a lot of other things which, suffice it to say, sucked.
I went out with a colleague to commiserate over a glass of wine about mutually horrific days. Afterwards, I was thinking about the blessing of coming home to my family.
And this Dan Fogelberg song started an endless loop in my head — “I have these moments all steady and strong, feeling so holy and humble. The next thing I know I’m all worried and weak, feeling the world start to crumble. . . .”
Happiness is having loved ones who will abide you when you are all holy and self-righteous and shore up your foundations when you are feeling about to crumble.
It is a moment to be thankful for the spirituality gained from a day’s worth of testing one’s sanity. It is also a moment to go to sleep, with rejuvenating cream slathered on, and promise yourself you will never have such a shitty day again.
Martin Buber meets Scarlett O’Hara. I am feeling a cosmic shift toward the drain. . .