Desperately seeking meaning

I don’t want to seek meaning in religion. I want to seek meaning in the here and now. In something that contributes to the common weal (to use a pre-1800s word) and pays the insane mortgage — i.e., a conspicuously consumptive do-gooder. Corporate law does satisfy my task-oriented personality and does tap my problem-solving talents, but is that evolution or devolution? Did my grandparents endure what they did so that I should get “soft” doing this? They were as surely frontiers people as those who settled the West, only they didn’t commit genocide on Native Americans. A difference I enjoy pointing out.